No Longer Matters
I want to give you the life you never had or thought was possible. I want to laugh with you…to play air guitar to Madonna songs in bowling alleys. I want to take care of you…to tuck you in when you’ve gotten too drunk on Superbowl Sunday. I want to listen to you…and sit at late night diners and talk about family secrets and our childhoods. I want to rock out with you…and sit in the car drunk at 3am listening to old school jams like “yo!!! Remember THIS?!”…as if we have all the time in the world. Weirdos, lol. I want to be proud of you…proud that you’re my baby and tell you constantly. I want to look out for you…and be there when you are in trouble to show my support. I want to hold you…and sleep in the nook of your body, feeling small and protected by your arms with that huge leg wrapped around me. I want to wake up with you…to the sounds of your breathing or the radio that’s way too loud. I want advice from you…because I’m impressed by your intelligence and know that together we could be a force. I want to be quiet with you…because we both appreciate those peaceful moments when we can get away from our crazy day-to-day. I want to understand you…because you’ve been through a lot and so many only see you for what you do and not who you are. I want to be honest with you…because you are honest with me but still try to protect me from knowing too much or being too harsh. I want to surprise you..and spend days and days looking for the perfect birthday present, because to me you are special…and something not special just won’t do. I want to be cool with you…watch ESPN and throw some beers back with you over cool convo at the local spot. I want to be real with you…and keep it 100 that trying to stay in the same place, doing the same things won’t stop life from happening. That there is a beautiful new chapter waiting to be read and that you should strive to be better than your crew and your rep. I want to be vulnerable with you…and keep proving to you just how special you are to me even when you are getting scared, getting cold and pushing me away. I want to be loyal to you…and let you know that I have no desire to share myself with others because I not only think too much of you, but too much of myself. That I’m sacred and special and you are as well and everyone shouldn’t get to have a piece of that. But I did all of that…and we didn’t end up us. Didnt even try. We ended up you and I. And while you and I will always be fine…it won’t be us. Two fishes swimming in opposite directions stand less of a chance when the tide is high. I want the fish who will swim with me. That’s the thing about wants…if both don’t want it, it no longer matters.
So if you’re like everyone else that loves new social media sites you’re definitely going to love Pinterest! Its like a cleaner version of Tumblr without all the nudity (nothing wrong with that ha!) and a billion of the same hipster-esque pictures. You can also organize the pictures you “re-pin” into “boards (organization turns me on).
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PHOTOSHOOT | California Lovin’
Had the pleasure of shooting with Danny Williams from TopshelfJunior while I was out in LA recently. Might be 1 of my top 5 favorite shoots, and no it’s not because it was on a beautiful private beach while the sun was setting and it was warm enough to wear a underboob exposing top , nope, it was because I love good souls and Danny is one of them. It was our first time meeting him but we just clicked and that kind of energy just transcends in the pictures. Wish I could put all of them up but here are some of the ones I really loved…
PHOTOSHOOT | HighSnobette
So while I was in Vegas for PROJECT I got to do a mini shoot with HighSnobette again. Love all the pieces they used, especially the Publish cargo pants! Here are some of my favoirte shots (all are unedited don’t mind the ickyness lol
FOOD | Santa Ana
So after having that amazing meal that was Lotus of Siam in Vegas I’d figure nothing would top it right? Wrong! That same night after our amazing meal we started to drive out to Santa Ana, California finally arriving at 2am or so, with that exhaustion and a decent night of sleep I was ready for more food like the fat kid I am on the inside. So we headed to the restaurant who like a dummy I didn’t get the name of! It was about 10 of us again so family style dining was in order (my favorite! more people, more food to eat yummm) I got completely obsessed with their Thai Ice Tea GOOD LORD it was a delicious!
Here’s our lobster before..
FOOD | Lotus of Siam Vegas
I don’t think I can praise how amazing this food was! I’m a huge fan of Thai food, but this spot put all the other places to shame! Majority of the time my mouth was burning up from how spicy everything was so having 5 cups nearby is a good idea if you aren’t use to that much spice. The wait was about 45 mins even though the place looked fairly empty other than the few diners and Andrew Zimmern from Bizzare Foods and his camera crew ( a good indication the spot is bombbbb). From outside the restaurant looks like a whole in the wall, but like most underrated amazing places this is a good indication the food is going to be good! It was a bunch of us so we got about 8 different plates of family style servings of food, honestly I can’t start to explain how good everything was! and don’t get me started on the fried banana and coconut rice ice cream we had for dessert. It’s definitely in my top 5 food destinations that everyone should try..
PROJECT VEGAS | Day 3
Last day! Definitely not enough time, this is what I get for being late! After a long night out (and a 3 hour difference) I was exhausted the next morning but I definitely wanted to go see more of my favorite brands including PROJECT Wooster by Nick Wooster, the ex-Men’s Fashion Director of Neiman Marcus Group Services and current Fashion Advisor at Gilt Group (See last post with camo couch). I even got to do a mini shoot for HighSnobette again where they styled me with my favorite Publish Brand floral cargo pants and artist-designed top and jacket by Emerald Couture and bangles by Sweet Evie. So in other words the outfit was killlerrrrrrr, can’t wait to get the rest of the shots! Sneak peak…
PROJECT VEGAS | Day 2
Yes day 2, completely missed day 1 of Project Vegas because I decided to book my flight late and traveling day of ended up being tons cheaper! But none the less I made the best of the remaining two days I had left to explore the massive space that Project Vegas was held in, much bigger than NY. First and foremost was visiting my Publish Brand family at their booth where I spent the majority of my time after exploring for a bit and retrieving to the booth to rest my feet, horrible idea wearing six inch heels to walk around all day! First day was overwhelming! So many brands to go see, didn’t know where to start! eeekkkkk
Nightlife at the Cosmopolitan Hotel (I die!!)
FILM | Day In the City
Still messing around with my film camera which I still haven’t gotten use too! You really start appreciating natural lighting when you start using a film camera without a flash, but I guess that just makes for better pictures right? Well I wouldn’t say better pictures but definitely more thought out pictures where you aren’t just snapping away with a digital. With film you have to analyze your angles, lighting, and focus all at the same time! Sounds hard but I’m sure when I get a hang of it I’ll never go back to digital These are just some shots I took while I was roaming around the city one day with my friend Will..